Feeling red and blue

I think I'm beginning to become a loner.
I'm starting to feel that I rather be left out of a group than to try and fit in a group.
I don't wanna try to impress people so that they'll like me anymore.
I just wanna be someone to stays at home often and only goes out when I want to.
I feel so shitty but I can't help feeling this way.
Maybe I'm selfish or whatever.
Screw me. Hate me. Leave me alone, and I will not have any grudge against you.

I want to be invincible.
I want people walk pass by me and not knowing that I exist.
Crazy enough?
Definitely..

..Or am I just having
another episode of
depression?