I'm just a girl

I'm just a girl who needs attention though did not request any.
I'm just a girl who doesn't want or need to impress people but truth be told, I'm doing so.
I'm just a girl who secretly dreams of living in a fairytale.
I'm just a girl who wants to fulfill my family's expectation but still holding onto my dreams.
I'm just a girl who always loses hope in myself.
I'm just a girl who wants to be invincible yet wanted to be needed.

I'm just a girl.. who's lost in the darkest of night.

I'm just an ordinary girl.

It's a serious deal now

I'm a freaking fatso now. I'm going to give myself a challenge. One month from now I'll be on a strict diet and I'm gonna exercise and eat leessssssss....


Start: 30/5

Due Date: 30/6

Okay...so NOW is the 29th, but it's soon midnight and it'll be 30th.. I might as well put 30th.
So..Go Go GO!!


Lose 5kg.
[xD]

AhMei~
Join if you want! xD

Feeling red and blue

I think I'm beginning to become a loner.
I'm starting to feel that I rather be left out of a group than to try and fit in a group.
I don't wanna try to impress people so that they'll like me anymore.
I just wanna be someone to stays at home often and only goes out when I want to.
I feel so shitty but I can't help feeling this way.
Maybe I'm selfish or whatever.
Screw me. Hate me. Leave me alone, and I will not have any grudge against you.

I want to be invincible.
I want people walk pass by me and not knowing that I exist.
Crazy enough?
Definitely..

..Or am I just having
another episode of
depression?

Tragic thing happens..

Had been hearing a lot of rumors and news about tragic deaths and car accidents. Death of a man died nearby my tuition centre, death of a friend's brother, all are the cause of?Speeding and the carelessness of the driver.
It's like so, HORRIFYING.

Yeah, so it seems that you're lucky you're not one of those unlucky people.

But take a second to think, what if those people, people who died so tragically that you can't even recognize his or her face, is one of your loved ones?
It just keeps giving me goosebumps to even think of it.

Don't think everyone is always so lucky. Those pictures on the newspapers are the proof that no one is always too lucky. Always appreciate people you care. Those people can anytime be those unlucky victim. It's not too hard to forgive and forget. =)
Most of all, LOVE and CARE for them.

Don't forget to drive safe!

~Tata~




[...sign off...]

Oh Happy day~

[this one's taken in PPD]

Finally! I can get my hand on the computer for good! My hand's been sooooooo awfully itchy for these past few days, AHHHHHH!!! =D
My sis is going back to Kampar today..*sobs*..but she'll be back on september!
XD Muahahahaha!!!
I still have to wait for another 4 months or so.

Must be hard working! [>.<]
Cannot be lazy!

Moreover, I cannot let anything [or anyone] to distract me from my studies and etc..
Must withstand this week(and next week)'s most fearful EXAM~
Marissa GO GO GO!

That's all I guess 'cause I have nothing that I want to particularly post about.
Next post might be a complain but well, who knows?

Gosh! I've totally forgotten about science exam and I didn't study for it! >.< I'm soooo dead.

Til next time..chaoz..

no particular title..

For the first time in my life, I felt a sudden ache in my heart. No. Not that type of 'the-love-of-my-life-leave-me' type of heartache. It's that type of ache that says, 'there's a piece of puzzle missing in me'.. It's disheartening to say though.. You have been in my life since, well, I was born. I wasn't use to it when you first moved out, but after sometime, I knew that I needed you. A lot. I realized what it meant by , "Appreciate what is in front of you". Now, I feel regret over those chances that I missed. I feel anger in me. I'm angry of myself for not noticing the shining light in front of me. I feel miserable because without you around, I'm lost. Most of all, nothing can fill in the missing piece after you're gone. You are my best friend.

Can't seem to gather the courage to say GoodBye..

I hate the world..

I hate people who always gets their way.
I hate people who always have what they want.
I hate people who have dreams of their own.
I hate people who work hard to achieve their goal.
I hate people who succeed in it.
I hate people who gets enough love.
I hate people who are popular.
I hate people who attracts other people.
I hate people who are patient.
I hate people who don't mind if other people do greater than them.
I hate people who are happy..

Because I am not any of it.

I hate myself.

New Day~~~

Tomorrow is always a new day.
=)
Forget the past, look forward to the future.
I know it's hard to do so, but, it's the right thing.

TAPI...

It's not all WRONG to have a peek back into the past
[swt]

(revenge must be done!)


nights~!!

Dumbo much?!

Is she so damn cute that everyone of you cannot see her one true face ( or her multiple faces ) that she's one heck of a dog? Gosh! I really can't help to say that all men are dumb to think that she's adorable. Damn.. call me crazy, dumb, immature, what ever you like, but I'm very very extra SURE that she's all THAT you're calling me.

Diet!!

I've gain weight this few days!
After my training I get SOOO hungry that I can actually eat a cow!
Now, I have a mission.
After my tournament, I will go on a diet! I'll ask many people help me to watch my eating.
And my buddy AhMei will both work together to watch each other's eating.
We're on diet.
Go GO Go!!!

Oh how I wish this world is easy..
I hope that I can just run away than having to face problems in life.
How can anything make me stronger?
I'll die soon.......
Emo me.. =(

Anyhow, I'm gonna be super strong these few days for the sake of the match. =)

Must show happy faces! Not let other people see the fragile me.

Is it okay to love?
Will I regret like before?
I think I will give myself some time before I decide.
Be strong and stay happy!
*SMILE*

[sign off]

Aneroxic?? Hmm..

I feel like being anorexic [=X]

This is what they think and feel:





This is how they look:





This is their commandments:




This is their recipes:





And this is what they commit to:

Crazy huh? Surprisingly, I WANT to be them. Hahahahaha! Random much? I think so too..
They look pretty.. =X

UpdateSS

I feeling all better. =) When I woke up this morning I feel kind of happy. [Haha] Anyway, it's been sooooo long since I had over 8 hours of sleep already. I feel so so so NICEEE.. Today is my off-day. I'm gonna use this off-day very SOOO wisely. [muahAHAHAHA!!]

I am in love with my best friend! [i know u know who you are]
=P
And-ssssssss.............. I am all money face now!

Hari ini movie day with Nilahsha. We watched IpMan2, ILLEGALLY!! The guard don't let us go in, so we went in thru the back entrance. XD It is SOOOO worth it! Suspense-nya!!! Hahaha.. Ang Mo Lang, don't look down on chinese ah~~

Anyway, after the movies, I met up with Ing Ing and later follow up by Api and Joyi. We shopped at Jusco. We eventually bought our sabun-s and SOME snacks. And we went to I-City after that. We had the laugh of our lives!! We laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh. We almost had stomach cramps in the car. Sangat cute and fun hanging out with friends today.
I really KNOW how to use this off-day.

But the unlucky part was that I bumped into someone [ more than 1 person ] that I don't wish to see. Seeing them really made me feel a little bit down and sad at the same time.

Anyway, I love today. =)

Guess that's all for today.
Be happy.

*SMILE*

sien..

I don't wanna say this, but I'm FUCKIN' tired of EVERYTHING. I don't know why, but I don't wanna care anymore. I don't give a DAMN. I don't care if EVERYONE hates me. I just don't wanna know how people feels. Don't like it? Buzz off! I'll look for you if I want to, but for now, leave me alone.


Why am I feeling depress all the time?

Don't answer my question. I'll figure out myself.

I miss my old days...

sad..

I am so so so so down right now..=( I don't know but I'm such a loser.. I feel like crying..but I can't..coz my tears won't bloody come out. I'm just so damn frustrated and TERRIBLY DEPRESSED!! Leave me alone..in this lonely world of mine.....

I'm gone....

Bye...

Tired...~~

Tiring day!!!!
Been told by my pet-bros that I look like someone's mom. =(
Anyway, had fun with them.
<3 =)
Hope to see them more often..

bored..

So, I'm now looking thru some unknown people's blog. And I found some blogs that have absolutely AMAZING PICTURES!
They're so WOW!
Talent weih..
Anyway, I suddenly have that kinda of urge to have a Digital SLR =( But one word. EXPENSIVE. Sad... Just wanna express out how I feel...

______________________________________________________________________

I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.I want a camera.

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That's all. =)

Tiring Adventure~

[ain't this puppy an angel??]

Hmmm... I haven't got the time or chance to update about yesterday's adventure. So, here it is. A day before yesterday I ask my friend, AhMei (!) out for basketball. In the end, we did something else.

We went to A LOT of places.

We walk here and there, and we talked a lot. The funniest part is that we went Giant's exercise equipment department and we treat it as our gym there. We use EVERY equipment available there including dumbbell!! XD We even played with the footballs and basketballs and we really really sweat ALOT!!


Then we went to this pet-shop and see some puppies and hamsters.
There's this puppy who LOVES to pose angel looks when we took out our phone and camera.
Cute-nya!!

Ini-lah puppy kita yang suka ACT INNOCENT =)

After that we had our lunch at KFC and we walked to Autumn and we went to Moden also..

[above]:AhMei

Met up with Tevin. AhMei and him had a chat and I fell asleep.

=X
In the end I cannot stand the tired-ness, I walked back home, leaving AhMei alone. =( [lucky ada Tevin]

But in the end, later at night, I went to the court til about 8 something-9? And went back, MAKAN, sleep..~~~~
the end..


BUT!! If you wanna know more details about the 'walk' I had with AhMei, click HERE.
That's all.. haha. =)

I enjoyed every second of yesterday. HAHAAAA!! =D