Monday, April 12

I don't need help if I never ask


People just don't know that I can take care of myself.
Hey.

I am not a small girl. I can be independent also okay? What if I'm blur? What if I'm slow? What if I look dumb? Hello?? Am I NOT a human being?

I make TONS of mistakes but apparently I learn from those mistakes.
I don't like people busy-bodying about how I should do this or how I should do that. I can take care of myself!
I am not those people who looks sympathetic and says, "Oh! How miserable am I! I'm so sad. I need someone who can take care of me! blah blah blah...!!"
NO!
When I say I don't need anyone's help, I MEAN it. If ever I need assistant on anything, I will request for it. I don't need sympathy from anyone.
Don't and I mean, DON'T, ever ever ever EVER insist on helping me. I know people around me may be kind and see that I kinda need a helping hand but when I say no I mean it.




Like for example, today, there was this korn on my finger and I have this pen-knife in my pencil box. My hand was kind of itchy and well, I cut the korn. I knew it would bleed because I cut it quite deep and I tried it before but I never thought that until after recess it would still be bleeding! So, after awhile I felt quite irritated by the non-stop bleeding because it affects my writing. Then I asked for a plaster from my classmates and no one have any. I stopped asking after I asked every of my classmates.

Then when our teacher was asking whether any of us understands what she taught in the class, Rebecca wanted to ask her that I need a plaster and I said NO because how can you be asking teacher for plaster when teacher is helping and giving us tips to score for exam?
But noooo... she HAS to insist. But I still said no. Then finally, she kept quiet.

But then again.. how can I forgotten about that nosy Siew Yen?? She asked teacher but luckily our teacher was deaf enough to not have heard what she said. When I thought everything was okay, nosy SY kept repeating the question again and again and again, HAH!!!!!

In the end, I can't take it anymore I just raised my voice and said,
" When I said NO means NO! What kind of NO can't you all understand!??".
And all went quiet. I was mad like WOW! Whole body was like shaking and my brain can't think straight. I can't face everyone and I end up looking outside the window and cool myself.

Little Miss Ruba Devi 'back-stabbed' me and told teacher that I need a plaster. Teacher came to me and said what happened.
At that time I was still quite shakey and I answered teacher,
" It's not like my finger is broken or anything. I don't need a plaster.".
Know what teacher said?

"If she say she doesn't need a plaster, don't need to trouble yourself to find it for her."

SEE??

Waste of time to help me.

I know you guys are of good intention to help me but when I say no, please don't insist.
I can be very scary and also I will not have the power to control myself from being a monster.
You all are lucky that I did not hit anyone.

Continue to my finger story.

After the teacher was out, our basic economics' teacher was absent. So I turned to Rebecca and said,
" Hey, let's go to the school's office to look for some plasters."

SEE???(again)



Told you when I need help I will ask for it myself.


Remember, I'm not a person who adores being treated like a Lord or queen. I am ME.




ps : REBECCA!! I'm sorry I raised my voice at you!

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