WTF is wrong with me?!

Fucking insomnia's kicking in again tonight. Damnit it's 4.30a.m already and my brain is tired, my body is worn out, but my freaking eye won't close.

I thought of this while I'm lying on my bed just now,:-

"Nightmare isn't about having bad dreams. To me, it only means having to wake up knowing that everything was fake."

Ain't it true?

In one moment when you thought everything is going the way it should be then the next,"BAMM"!! It is only a dream.

Maybe I'm unlucky because whatever I wished and hoped for, doesn't seem to come true. It's only something beyond my reach.

Whatever, forget about it. I'm gonna waste my time counting sheeps and cockroaches in my house. I hate you BTW.

:)

coffee makes me go VA-VA-VOOM!!!!

Well well well.. it's 5a.m in the morning and I haven't sleep for the day yet and still very hyper!

I did sit-ups, jumping jacks and just run around in the house. Am I silly or what? Plus, I had a cup of Kopi-O!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm officially crazy. It's stupid. These few days of insomnia and now I can't sleep. What has gotten into me???? Is it because of the preparation of exams or what? I don't think it's because of that.

Anyway, I'm happy to say that I'm not afraid to admit that I am BORED. OF. LIFE. There! I've said it. Better yet, I've typed it! It's like, whenever I'm not out with my friends or family, I'm only at home, doing nothing. I never felt so bloody bored before! Is it because that before this I had HIM to waste my time on? Or is it just that before this I know how to spend my time? Anyhow, I just want to STOP feeling this way. I want someone to waste my time with. ='[ I hate having this feeling. FUCKING feeling. Maybe I'm sick of being single. SICK SICK SICK!

I have no idea what title to put it.

Everyday is another new day.

Never wish what had happened, happened.

We can only look it back and smile because if not because of it, we are not who we are NOW.

♥

not-really-happy UPDATE =)

Picha!

*Group photo after our performance for National Eve's at school*

XD copied from Feeqa's album =)

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Then after looonnggg boring day in school (after those performance) I went to meet up with friend at Aeon.

Went Greenbox (not planned one) with STAR students.

You can see the one that is sesat one has the BIGGEST face..

Before I met up with my friend, I was at Popular Book Store to look for a novel that I've read since the last time I went there. I can't seem to find that book anywhere.

[CRY!!]

I really LOVE that book and I think the book's title is called "Things I say to my Daughters".

I THINK la..though I'm not really sure.

But I'm sure that I LOVEEEE that book a lot and hoping to get to have that book someday.

*it's touching. REALLY!!*

But still.. =( I'm feeling very moody now and I because of some reasons but I can't say it.

*BLEGHH*

It's about 1:30a.m now so it's National Day already.

Great. I *sob sob* on MERDEKA. It'll be great!

I just hope that after my sleep, it will be a good day.

PS: Smile more. (:

Bored...again.

I miss my best friend.

='(

Where is she when I need her?

Updates!!

My week has been FREAKING BORING!!

Haven't been going out anywhere but I got to go study with my fellow classmates maths and tomorrow have to sing for our Merdeka celebration at school.. ON STAGE... T.T don't really wanna go but SPM got cert.. so, like what I'll say, "GO NIA LOR"...

Ha Ha.

It's not funny, I'm just freaking bored.

Miss taking picture though =(

That's all i think. TATA!

*sigh* again..

Don't ask me why.

Don't ask me what happened.

Don't ask me to know what made me this way.

All I can say is..

I DUNNO.

Stop it.

I really dunno.

='(

I'm sorry you guys. It's just me.

sorry lah~

I'm sorry!!! I don't dare to do it anymore. I promise.

TEACHER ah..

Can return me my bag bo?

*innocent eyes*

=)

I can't sleep...

It's 3a.m. now and obviously in the middle of the night I'm still not asleep yet as I'm suppose to.

LOL

So, to cure my boredom, I would like to share what had happen earlier when I was online-ing.

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Suddenly my oh-so-liang zaii cousin brother find me for a chat and asked for a group chat in msn with my sis and his sis.

Then I asked him to add my current e-mail address because I did not add him [XP] then he invited my sister and my cousin sis(happens to be his sis) in the chatbox.

We chatted about some useless topic and my cousin sis says that she have to go out.

Then, few seconds after my cousin left out, my sister left too.

Then.. left only me and my cousin brother.

Ain't that a wonderful moment for us cousins?

All four of us in different places and only chatted for less than 5mins.

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..:SMILE MORE:..

=D

ps : I'm wearing a short pants in the hall without the lights on. So, I'm practically feeding the mosquito as I'm typing now. *itchy* ** scratch**

When I woke up and see the time...

Oh My GOSH!!

I over-slept again.

*SOBS*

That means what???

I missed church.

*sigh*

But the good news is that my dad went to a church at Teluk Pulai and brought along my younger brother, Garion, there too and he says he wanted to bring us next week so I'm quite excited because I've never been to a church WITH my DAD before.

[!!Laugh Out Loud!!]

As excited as it is, I'm MORE excited on the holidays, my sisters return(only for awhile, she's not graduating until this DEC!! KNS!), the 2 weeks holidays next month, and most of all... having to finish my SPM!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHH!!!!!!

Anyway, made a deal with AhMei and if any of one of us can't succeed in the bet we've made by next month's 16th, we have to treat the other one makan! XD

[wakaka]

=P

I

MISS

TAKING

PICTURES

SO

EVERYONE

PLEASE

DON'T

SHOW

OF

ON

TAKING

PICTURES

IN

FRONT

OF

ME

.

.

THANKS

A

LOT

=)

So...... hmmmm......

I need a life.

I need an aim.

I WANT a better and comfortable future.

I really want to move outta my house and to leave my current life cause it SUCKS.

..smile more..

=)