PB&C

So.... my life's been filled with PEANUT BUTTER for these past couple of days!!
My mom bought a jar of PB last two days and I've already eaten almost a QUARTER of a JAR [GAWDDD]
I'm PB CRAZYYYYY-ing now~!!
I'll eat it with AND without bread and I do SOOOOOO enjoy it [heaven~~]
But I also wanna advise you guys that if you eat too much, there'll be pimple growing out of your face and you'll NOT be very pleased with it so DON'T repeat what I did.


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And chocolate too!

Remember!
Smile always! =D

Lovely Fools

Fools, we all are..
Hurt after hurt over love.
So sure that this time will be different, yet again got fooled by that innocent eyes.

Fools, yes we all are..
Never once realize, that he'll do it again.
All those price we paid, only to be fooled once again..
What a lovely fool we all are.

Though I may look like I'm falling for you again, but worry not.
I am not the same girl you've fool before.
However, I will sometimes peek back what's left behind, but I know very well that it is the past.
I will be known as the girl who has now grown to stand up after all the falls.
So, beware, as the new me has now arrive.

Just being a stupid girl

I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed tears every one in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
~*I miss you*~

Addicted!

[credits to AhMei]

Updates!
Finally I have the urge to update again.
My mood? : Neutral.
I just feel the need to update this blog from being dead!
How does everybody feel about the new layout? Nice?

Recently I've been feeling extremely lazy to do anything.
Chores, studies, even sports are not seemingly fun to me anymore.
What happened?!
But one thing I know is that I'm going crazeeeyyyyy!!!

I love SHOPPING and MONEY

Straight to the point:

Give me money, I'll automatically love you. xD

Nah....I'm just messing around.
See?? I'm crazy right?
=P
Maybe it's because of the tension around me made me like this??
If it's true, Screw 'em!

Hmm...what more to write?

OH yeah~!
I ♥ SHOPPING!
I unbelievably used up ALL my savings in just TWO days?!

I gave myself a terrible shock!!

Though I KNOW that most shopaholic spend more than I do, but it's kinda surprising that a person, LIKE ME, will spend this much!
It's not at all like me.

Owkay.....enough with the shopping.
I need something else that interest me to distract me from shopping.
I don't wanna become another one of those psycho SHOPAHOLIC that is obsessed with clothing, shoes, accessories !!
Gosh!!!
=X

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Anyway, I just hope that I'll get over SoMe things and move forward.

Some things are just best if remain as the past..

Wonders of Life

can anyone heal this heart?

This holiday are both awesome and also depressing. Things and memories from the past have been haunting me every single day during the holiday. I mean, have I done something SOOOO bad that I have to suffer like this?
Okay, I know that I hurt you, and I really know and appreciates it when you treated me so good and kind before...
But you yourself know that it's not working out between us right?
I mean, must you be SO obvious that you are happy without me? Or must you show me every single thing that proves you're over me by picking on my feelings?
It has already been hard for me to have you taking my friends away from me and made me feel left out, how can you do any more worse?
I really can't BELIEVE that any person will do this over a stupid BREAK-UP?
But honestly, I have to thank you because you have shown me the true faces of the 'friends' I have. Let's just say, they are not who I think they are. I thank you! But other that that, PLEASE!! Stop making me so miserable!

Moreover, these past few days, Mr.A has been calling me on and off. Making me feel this kinda eager to answer his calls, you know?
'the heck?
Is everyone planning to murder me this holiday through mentally abusing me?
Well, success is now in the palm of his hand because he's already making me feeling like a SHIT since the past 4 days.

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Do you know the feeling of when you want to cry, but the tears can't seem to come out?
Have you ever try to smile, but it's not always with sincerity?
Have you ever been in a situation where you feel like being isolated, yet has the urge of being needed?

THIS is the 'pre-hell' I'm facing through right now!

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"I am lost in the valley of darkness"

This is the time when I need someone who can motivate me. Someone who can smack the whole sense of living in this world and wake me up from my childish nightmare.
Someone who can give me strength to overcome my ultimate fear, FAILURE.
And that only person is sadly in other place. Far away.
I have to slowly,[and hopefully with patience if I have any] to wait for her to come back at the end of the year.
I need her. Now. I really do.
*sobs*

I need a shoulder to cry on.

PS: I just cleared my cupboard and threw some clothes away. *Phew*! I threw out the unused clothes away and feel so damn freakin' FREE! Why can't I feel the same about life?

-Warning-

I am not sad because of what had happen. People always come and go and I've already expect these people will go eventually. People always try to be in a group, then when they found new friends that's much cooler, they will just leave the old gang and go. I don't mind. It's the way life should be. I can be this way too, but I chose not to. I'd rather be the audience who witness all these craziness between who wants who more.

I know people sure wondering why is my post so confusing. It's okay. I didn't plan to post anything but I have to because it's killing me inside. I just want to tell it to somebody (better yet, at someplace) and just live my own life.

Yes, I have a very strict family and I am not like those people who doesn't care what their mom or dad thinks and not respect them. All they know is have fun and 0% of responsibilities. I've learned my responsibilities the hard way and I am going to grow in it.

I have plans and budget for my financials but they just take their parents' money and spend it. And after it's finish, they ask for more. Yeah, typical teenager right? But for a teenager that's reaching the age of 17? or 18? yeah..That's consider as reaching an adult age! They should know better that it's time to wake up and not be some lazy dumb ass who hangs around from here to there and not care for what's happening in the surroundings.

I've had it with dealing with these kind of irresponsible people and I'm going to get my life out of their's and not be involve with any of them. I am who I am. They are FAKE. That's the end.

And for those people who read my ranting, thank you so much. Loves =)

Hols ^.^

Hmm...holiday's here. I guess this holiday I won't be going out often or have plans. I'll just stay at home, watch some DVD and eat cookies. :P Relaxing hols. *smiles*

Hope you people will have a great holiday and enjoy!

Start over

Want to start a new beginning. Hope everything will turn out good. :)

PS: I miss you <3