1/11

WAZZZZUUUUPPPPPPPPPPPP, Blogger!!!

Sudah berapa lama tak jumpa??? Hahahaa!

I'm back! For good, I hope??

How's my life, you ask?

Well.. I hadn't been attending school ever since after my graduation lunch.

Another thing.. waking up at noon everyday is NOT a good idea and it might ruin your daily routine by ALOT. I've been slacking house chores lately and the only thing I did was hanging up the clothes this afternoon! :D Cool?? Nahhhh...

Been sleeping in my parents room for almost a month or so. Yes, yes, yes, I'm a baby so SUE ME if you want to but I like it. One thing I don't like was sleeping on the floor though.. [T.T]

And most probably over-sleeping for a week has made my immune system suck! I've been having cold and cough these few days and let me tell you, IT SUCKS. And every night I can't seem to be asleep not until after 2 or 3a.m.? ERrrggghhhh.. Finally, since I had nothing to do, these are the pictures I took though I might say, my camwhoring skills are a little rusted. [xP]

[this is my 'act cute' pose]

[this is my 'whatever' pose]

[this is my ':)' pose]

this is my 'friend' during my "fighting the virus" time

My 'friends' during the time when I cannot sleep. :)

I guess that's all. :)

I memang suka akan you.

Tapi, I guess you tak suka saya ba..

Lebih lagi, you've got her.

I don't even have a little chance of having you fikir tentang saya just for a little while.

Anyhoo, ni zhi shi wo de hui yi.

♥

Lyric of my beloved song..

I really really like this song alootttttt... 'ya know???

LOVE IT TO THE MAXXXXX!!! HAHAHA...

Anyway, this' just the lyrics.. songs you all listen your own ba! XDDD

LOVE THIS SONG!!! (again)

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kind of boring
Need something that i can confess

Till all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no, I've been on the brink, so

[CHORUS]
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that'll like those ears
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time
Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm Gonna give all my secrets away

My God, amazing how we got this far
It's like were chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars

And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Seen it straight to go
I don't really like my flow, no, so

[CHORUS]

Got no reason
Got no shame
Got no family
I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

[CHORUS x2]

All my secrets away (x2)

Secret

The title was name after the song Secret by One Republic. Am currently in love with this song and keep repeating in my head AND computer speaker. [XD]

[I forgotten where this was taken]

Finally I've ended it.

I am not sorry to end it neither regret because I did.

You were my best friend for 10months and given me the love that very few of my friends can give and I really do appreciate it a lot.

You pampered me like your own little sister and helped me in many ways like giving me the comforts and good words..

BUT!!

There's always a 'but' in these situation..

I thought I was the only special one.. BUT you treated everyone the same.

I thought that you only think of me as sister.. BUT everyone's a sister and brother to you.

I told you ALMOST everything about me and I know little of you.

I helped you and want you to join me in my life but you only let me in PART of your life.

HAVE YOU EVER CARE HOW I FEEL??

You were always emo here and there and when me and your friends advice you, you ignore us all and continue to be EMO.

You always want me to be happy when I'm sad but have you ever look yourself in the mirror?

You're a SAD person.

You're nothing but a girl who wants attention and sadly to say, you're fake.

I don't want to tell to your face because I know it's hurtful..

OKAY.. I don't want to do this anymore.

I know you think I hate you.

But actually I don't.

I'm just fed-up of you.

BYEE...

Yeeeeee!!! :D

Last two days I went for the Breast Cancer Awareness walk-athon. Yipee?? LOL

So, I had a body check-up and the nurse told me I am HEALTHY as a HORSE! *neighh* [=.=]

Too bad I can't donate blood because *what???? what you say??* UNDERAGE!!!! YAh YAH.! I have to be above 18 [=.=] [=.=] [=.=] [=.=]

After that I TERUSSSS went back home with Vance and other guy friends play BKB but in the meantime I was sleepy and tired and I thought can go back home early.. SEE SEEEEE, my family went church and I don't have key so I have to wit til 2pm.. GAAHHHHHH!!!!

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The YESTERDAY PULAKK!!!

Muahahahahaha~~~

Me and my friends played catching! We ran the whole building/school while the science students were having their bio paper, I think.

Good exercise you know??? eLOheL.

I seriously had a lot of fun.

It's been like, YEARS since I played catching and hide and seek. The boys were fast because, well, they can run fast. They took 5minutes to catch us but took us 20minutes to catch them. They really know how to hidee!! Someone hid inside the cupboard and took us very long time to know that he was inside! HAHA.

Then, *dot dot dot* balik rumah lorrrr...

I think that is all I can think of writing.

I seriously want to thank her for showing me what's a real friendship is all about.

Real friends don't fake around every other friend.

Real friends don't kiss asses.

Real friends are straight-forward even if it hurts.

Real friends stay even if no one will.

REAL FRIENDS CARE.

♥

BAHHH~~

She's back.

:)

YES.!?

Should I be happy that I'm gonna be ordered around by someone much 'SUPERIOR' or happy that I have someone that can be talked to?

Anywhoo~ I'm happy. :D

Geezz.. I'm getting boring by the second.. and by 'boring', YES. I am boring. Nothing is interested anymore in my post and when I have interesting stories to tell, I am lazy to post anything.. *stare at keyboard*..

No one will read any of it anyway. Not like any of my friend's blog. THEIR best friends will read it because they seem to CARE. SOME 'best friend' would take notice of their best friend's changes. Some 'best friend' would ask when their best friend is being silent all of the sudden. Well.. some BEST FRIEND wouldn't ask some people to trust them when they know they themselves cannot be trusted! Some BEST FRIEND won't simply say out her problems and confront to other strangers and NOT TELL HER BESTFRIEND about it!!!

I am disappointed in you. Oh yeah, you wouldn't know because YOU DON'T VIEW MY FUCKING BLOG!! Well.. BOOHOO!!! You are PATHETIC, SELF-PITY, TWO-FACED 'friend'.

Or I would call you,

.Ex-Best-friend.

Ps: YOU are my classmate.

Ps II : This headache is seriously gonna force me into anger management.

*signing off*

I HATE LEE WEI LOON. SPE'S BOYFRIEND. HATE HIM.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND I LOVE YOU

As you can see, the picture above is NOT me.

"Then who?", you asked?

Well, it's non other than my B-E-A-U-tiful MOTHER of mine!

This post is about her obviously by the picture and the title clearly says HAPPY BIRTHDAY so there it is...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!!!!!

There are no other mom in this world that would love being childish than me other than you and I love you for being this way. You cheer me up with your silly doings and yeah, I've been often throwing silly tantrums for the SMALLEST reasons and I want to apologize to that. I'm sorry for those childish behavior of mine and all I want to say is, YOU ARE THE GREATEST MOM ON EARTH!!!

Me and ka jie LOOOVVVEEESSSS the GUTS OUT OF YOU!!!

(it sounds sooo WRONG)

And, mommy, you did a great job raising us and NO ONE should ever say that you did not.

Anyway who says that are all FUCKING ASSHOLE coz' you know what? THEY ARE DUMB FUCKING ASS and if you did not raise us up the way you did, we'll be taking drugs and smoke and doing all kinda stupid brainless stuff that brainless people do. Soo....... DON'T EVER let people condemn you and your mind by saying that you don't know how to raise your child. LOVES...

From your daughter, MARISSA.

♥

ps : sorry for the censored words. :P

WTF is wrong with me?!

Fucking insomnia's kicking in again tonight. Damnit it's 4.30a.m already and my brain is tired, my body is worn out, but my freaking eye won't close.

I thought of this while I'm lying on my bed just now,:-

"Nightmare isn't about having bad dreams. To me, it only means having to wake up knowing that everything was fake."

Ain't it true?

In one moment when you thought everything is going the way it should be then the next,"BAMM"!! It is only a dream.

Maybe I'm unlucky because whatever I wished and hoped for, doesn't seem to come true. It's only something beyond my reach.

Whatever, forget about it. I'm gonna waste my time counting sheeps and cockroaches in my house. I hate you BTW.

:)

coffee makes me go VA-VA-VOOM!!!!

Well well well.. it's 5a.m in the morning and I haven't sleep for the day yet and still very hyper!

I did sit-ups, jumping jacks and just run around in the house. Am I silly or what? Plus, I had a cup of Kopi-O!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm officially crazy. It's stupid. These few days of insomnia and now I can't sleep. What has gotten into me???? Is it because of the preparation of exams or what? I don't think it's because of that.

Anyway, I'm happy to say that I'm not afraid to admit that I am BORED. OF. LIFE. There! I've said it. Better yet, I've typed it! It's like, whenever I'm not out with my friends or family, I'm only at home, doing nothing. I never felt so bloody bored before! Is it because that before this I had HIM to waste my time on? Or is it just that before this I know how to spend my time? Anyhow, I just want to STOP feeling this way. I want someone to waste my time with. ='[ I hate having this feeling. FUCKING feeling. Maybe I'm sick of being single. SICK SICK SICK!

I have no idea what title to put it.

Everyday is another new day.

Never wish what had happened, happened.

We can only look it back and smile because if not because of it, we are not who we are NOW.

♥