Here's to the launching of my blog.

ITS OFFICIAL!! To view it, click here. :D don't worry, i wont delete this blog, but definitely i will be updating only on the new one. <3

Goodbye

And we all say goodbye.

2 more papers.

2 more meetings.

2 more laughter together.

2 more group study.

And after that, separate ways we go.

I won't promise that I will always remember each one of my friends in school, but I can promise that I will always cherish the moment that we all had together.

<3

AHHHH

I PROMISE MYSELF.

After outing with AH MEI,i will not go out anymore. Only after i achieve my personal goal. That's to **************!! (sorry, it's private)

PS: after eating a bread with thick butter spread, only i have my SPIRITED HIGH. Hey.. super model, here i come!

ps II: I'll find a super model, famous one. Print here picture and paste it on the wall. I will make her my motivation. :D

Celebrate Mr.PB's birthday

I had a great night being with fellow officials tonight but the bad part was that me and my friends are the middleman of two very POWERFUL officials. Both of them are VERY good to us, but when they're mad, whoah.. just remember to bring an armor so that we won't get hurt.

LOL.

It was fun though. I really want to become a referee in the future. It's very awarding. :)

New?

This blog is so sad.. I think I'm gonna make a new one. How'd you all think? I'll think about it. But if I'm gonna change, I'll still leave this blog and not delete it. Find out more soon. :D

Some random stuff about my brother

Few random moments with Garion.

• One day when I took him cycling around my neighborhood, I stopped by a playground when Garion asked me, " Do we need to pay to play in this playground?"
• There was once when he was watching some children programme and I got annoyed by the loud volume so I scolded him to turn it off, then he said, " I like to watch! Your business? Who do you think you are?". Of course my response was, " You sister!" Then he said, " Oh. Ya hor."
• Garion said, " I wanna lose weight, but I love to eat. How?"
• His told me his favorite word was STONE.
• I stare at him. G: "What?" Me:".." G: "What?" Me:"..." G:"WhAT??" Me:"..." G: "Siaoo.."

These are some of the funny yet lame things happened between us.

:D

Enjoy!

Siamese twins

Haha.

SOME way to prevent boyfriends from getting in your pants huh?

:)

Just another random update *wink*

FINALLY!!

I finished few papers that I have now forget what paper was it.

BM was okay for me, English was kinda hard, History was very.. well.. HISTORICAL. It's so ancient I don't even know what the question was. Maths very scary but I still got through it and today I had Moral paper.

For the first time in my school years, this is the hardest I studied.

Like, SERIOUSLY.

Not even during for my mid-term or final exam I have ever studied so hard and guess what???

I feel SMART.

[KAKAKAKAKAKAKA]

I feel that I'm smarter than a normal people but then how can I get 11years + 2years( Kindergarten ) of schooling in few days of studying right?

Anyway, I'm gonna stop about the exam.. I hate talking (or typing) about exams and studying.. so...

I am feeling SOOOOOOOOOOO nervous, sad, excited, happy, gloomy, ya da ya da, ...etc. about last days of school! I can't believe that I'm leaving school in less than a MONTH!

Whenever I see older peoples (just a few years above me) working or currently study at college or U, never once I think about me in their place.

I've always think of myself as someone who drags myself to school every morning and seriously, I used to wish that time can run faster so that I can get out of school and start my own life.

But since my time is really running so fast it's disheartening to think that my school life's gonna end very, very, VERY soon. [sobs]

SO sad.......... saddest part is, my allowance gonna end too. [WUAHH...] How? How?

And now, I have [blank] in my mind on what to post so I think I better and or else I'm gonna type in something crazy.

HAPPY SPM-ing!

:D

Is there anyone who understands? I am really tired.. seriously..

There's a thing about my blog. It's that it's very dull and bland. Why is that so? I've been out of it for like more or less than a week, and I still don't have any idea of what to post about. The thing with me is that I easily forget. But then, if I got into something or someone I will have flash backs of what I did before. MAYBE I have a minor [or major] memory loss but I am still capable of remembering things if I want to or if somebody mentions about it.

Most people who has their own blog are happy people. Happy-go-lucky who has interesting days to share about. They do not only have the least of the problems but if they do have they just do some kind of a thing and *POOF*, Adios, problemo!

I know, I know.

I should be the same, ain't that right?

But there's the thing, I am not a happy girl. In fact, I'm an angry person. I made everyday of my life seem depressing. I tried to be 'happy' for a period of time but, hey, life's tough.

Life's tough eh? Yeah.. everyone's does. It's tougher when it's already tough, the people that you thought that cared, made it tougher. It's not that I can't take it, I can. I just can't handle the fact that the only one that is trying to make things better was only ME. I need support, help and well, SUPPORT. Is that some kind of Mission Impossible? People shouldn't face the problems I'm having. Problems and temptations are only the things that they gave me instead of motivations or supports.

Funny thing was that my dad just offer me to a trip to a hotel for 2 days 1 night and I have never go to a family trip before in my life but HANG ON A SEC. If I'm going, then Sunday I'll be coming back, and the next day is maths. NO. I cannot jeopardize my exam or future but I've never been to a trip with my own family before. I know it's easy for someone to just say, "Stay for your studies, it's much more important" or "Go for the trip! You can study there". But how about what I feel? If I go for the trip, it's another word for not studying because I can't study myself.

And IF i go for my studies, I'll be missing out the fun and the only opportunity to spend with my family. HOW?

It's just a dilemma I'm having inside my head.

Like I say to myself these days, "GET OVER IT!"

The only thing that is motivating me to keep on going was my studies.

I want to get my best result.

I want to achieve my dreams.

WHY?

Because I want to get away.

I don't wanna face the problems I'm having now.

I am done with it. I need something new or fresh.

It's stupid, because in my heart, I still love every bit or that problem and I know that i'll miss 'em. Every part of it.

But one thing, I'm not my sister.

I'm not as strong as her.

God, guide me please.

ps: I need something fresh and new, that is why i changed my blog name. Chaoz.. let us all hope for something refreshing..

ps II: I cried for like, an hour or so, no one knows. But i guess after this everyone will. PUNNY.